Chapter One
Letting Go
In case you haven't noticed, mixed media art journals are all the rage. Everyone seems to be getting out all their ink sprays, stains, paints and stencils and creating layer upon layer that somehow comes together as a whole.
I bought a new mixed media journal at the beginning of the year. The original plan was that I'd try jumping on this creative band wagon and see what all the hoopla was about. I had the over zealous idea that I would let my creativity flow at least once a week and let it meander where ever it decided it needed to go.
But what I am finding is that I am struggling with the question as to whether or not this type of journal art fits me. Or, if the struggle I'm having is a result of not having done this type of creating previously and I am lost in how to make it happen.
When I look at journal pages I have one of two reactions. First reaction is "Whoa. Waaaayyyy too much happening on this page". My mind/eyes don't know where to focus as there are too many layers, colors, dots, dashes, words, zig zags.
The second reaction is "Whoa! I like this! How does this person put together all these different elements that draws my eye to seek out the details in all the layers?"
My first attempts at an art journal page enlightened me to a few personality traits that I'm not sure fit this type of art form. For one, I apparently have the compulsive need to control where and how inks, paints and sprays apply to the paper. I don't like, or perhaps, cannot foresee how the blotches of the above mentioned mediums will look like a cohesive work of art. This is more than likely due to my lack of skill using stencils and inks in this manner. I have used stencils for many years to assist in painting of murals. But, those stencils were to facilitate a more realistic piece of art. Not a free flowing "let the splatters land where they may" type of art.
The second annoying trait would be that I over think each and every placement of the different elements. This should come as no surprise to me, as I have over thought each and every element on every card I have every made. But, when one is trying to have a random, flowing of creativity, this does not work in one's favor!
As a result, my first page looks exactly like what is is: an over analyzed, stay within the lines, stiff piece of work.
Please don't take me wrong! In reality, I know that there is nothing really wrong with this page. It is just not the page that I was hoping to create. This page, unfortunately, just does nothing for me, except bring to mind the feelings of frustrations, disappointment and a major "Eh. Whatever", attitude.
Instead, this page will be a page of lessons learned from my vast amount of mistakes.
I began my page by applying Gesso over a 9x11" multi media journal page. I then randomly smooshed (technical term) Distress Inks over the page and moved them around with a watercolor brush that had been dipped in some water.
Lesson One: I need to figure out how to use spray inks. I don't know if it is because I did not adhere the stencils down securely or because I held the inks too close while spraying. What I do know is, I was left with just a blotches of ink, pooling under the stencil.
Lesson Two: It is just paper. The ink spray splotches were beyond my tolerance. And before I even thought to try and salvage the piece, I redid the background.
Which is where my compulsive need to control the inks came in. I replaced the stencil and used a variety of inks to give the background leaves a definite outline. The edges were still a bit fuzzy due to the fact that I was too impatient to let the wet paper dry completely before applying the Distress Inks. Which, if you have never used Distress Ink, react with water and spread out.
Lesson Three: When one is applying Wendy Vecchi's black embossing paste through a stencil, one needs to be aware of the smudges of black that are being spread around in the haste to apply more paste instead of properly cleaning the stencil between flipping it from front to back.
Lesson Four: Yes, Gesso covers mistakes. But, sometimes, covering the mistake with Gesso makes a larger mistake.
To my dismay, I discovered that Distress Stains and Inks do not completely cover Gesso. The resulting color is muted, as if the Gesso absorbs the ink, leaving areas that do not "match" the rest of the background. No matter how many layers of ink you apply.
Lesson Five: Walk away. Sometimes you just have to walk away and let the stewing simmer to a less frustrated level.
At some point, you have to acknowledge the fact that the page is never going to turn out like you had hoped it would. So, grab another stencil and experiment with using Copics through a stencil.
Lesson Six: Review Lesson Five and walk away. Several days (okay, a couple of weeks later) grab some random paints and try to fix the leaves one more time.
The leaves still don't match. But they aren't as muted as they originally were.
Lesson Seven: Take to heart the words Kenny Roger's sang so long ago in The Gambler
You got to know when to hold 'em, know when to fold 'em,
Know when to walk away and know when to run.
You never count your money when you're sittin' at the table.
There'll be time enough for countin' when the dealin's done.
Know when to walk away and know when to run.
You never count your money when you're sittin' at the table.
There'll be time enough for countin' when the dealin's done.
I'm walking away.
'Till next time...................
